Daymares can ruin your life!

There is a quote that I really like – Although I have no Idea where it came from…

“Its OK to be afraid, It’s NOT OK to let the fear stop you”

I find that I spend so much of my time thinking, worrying, ruminating – Whatever you want to call it. I worry about everything, and find that I can really freak myself out. I end up thinking about the different end results possible through all types of scenarios.  Kind of like daydreaming, I guess, just a lot less pleasant!  I suffer from “daymares”, and I don’t want to let myself “hold back” out of  fear of what might, could, would possibly happen.  I believe that it can actually change the course of your life, limit who you become, or even change your path in life. Depending of course on the degree of fear that Is making you worry. It controls you. Living your life by “what if’s”, IS NOT very freeing. Talk about losing your creative edge!

Spring is here!

I can’t believe that February has already ended, and march is half over! But as I sit here, I can see 3 birds sitting on top of a TV dish next door. I can hee them chirping. Today the sky is blue, unlike that dirty white that yesterdays was. I think that (like a lot people) I love the in between times. Spring and autumn rather than summer and winter. The weather is perfect and the birds and flowers are here.  There’s nothing quite like the air in autumn. Its so crisp, and clean. Brisk. It just smells so refreshing. The colors are straight off an artists palette. Bright and vivid foliage against a crisp blue sky. Its such a deeper blue, almost “thicker”  than springtime’s sky’s.  Summer and winter are just too extreme. Lovely at the beginning, but just too much all the same.

“Herstory” of Life

Our life is like a story.. Characters, plots, – action, adventure, drama. (sometimes TOO much drama!)  When i read, I can get so upset when it has a “bad”ending.  Then, that’s it. All done, nothing else. Why should my story end before I’m ready? Or end poorly? I think that I have a lot more control over it than I previously believed, and realizing that makes me want the “good” ending. It doesn’t have to be a fairytale ending -  Just a satisfying, and fulfilling one. Balanced. The sorrows, tempered by joy. The lessons learned, and appreciated.  Why let it be BlAnD, when there’s so much to see, and so much to love. To Embrace.

The foundation

You can start and build a hundred foundations, but only the finished one counts. The rest are just pieces of A whole, beginnings without an end. Matter without meaning. Shattered promises and broken dreams.